mase pun blalu~

Last Friday, I went back to my house in pJ. Break fasting wit my family. My bro pun blik.. my dad pun ade.. Cuma, my bro yg kt kuantan je xder.. tp, ok la.. da lame x mkan same2.. mcm dulu.. my mum, sis, bro, dad n me.. x tau la nape, mase buke tu, rase sayu jer.. mayb da lame x mkan same2 mcm tu.. ayah smp umah a bit late.. da 5 mins buke, bru die smp umah.. He got other ‘commitment’ dat needs to fullfil.. hm.. When I was young, ayah mesti ajak ktrg makan skali same2.. I miss dat moment so much. Skrg, da besar jarang sgt dah makan skali. X tau la naper.. maybe, masing2 da bz ngan hal memasing.

After spm, I got offer to do my dip at uitm Melaka. At dat time, rase berat hati sungguh nk g. almaklumlah, I’ve never been apart from my family.. x pernah. Igt lg, ayah pun tmenung kejap ble dpat tau dat news. Bkan die x hepi, tp, sbb jauh. Tp, skrg ni, Melaka bkan jauh sgt pun.. hehe.. igt lg, die tye, x le tuka g shah alam ke? Huhu.. suke ati je ayah neh.. mane la bole.. tp, aku g gak.. mmg kt dlm hati, xder langsung nk masuk uitm Melaka tu. Tp, ble pk blik.. its all about my future.. tpakse la.. pegi je la.. sadis je.. 3 years kt Melaka, really changed me to a better person. More independent la.. byk gle kenangan yg means much to me.. 1st day kt sane, hm.. x seronok langsung. Honestly, senyum pun buat2. x hepi langsung. D 1st week, sgt mencabar emosi.. homesick, x payah cte la.. nk blik je dlam otak neh.. rindu sgt kt family.. tambah2 lg, dh ade bf mase tu.. lg la.. uwaa.. hahaha.. lawak. Ble pk blik, klaka pun ade.. tp, dat was moments dat taught me lots on how to be more independent.. physically.. mentally n emotionally.. thanks a lot kt uitm Melaka.. hahaha..

Then, ble dah stahun kt Melaka, my bro yg no 3 pulak dpt offer msuk boarding skool. Kt kuantan.. pun same kes gak.. die lg la.. basuh baju sendiri pun x lepas.. mase tu, mmg risau gle nk lepas die g.. my mom lg la.. tp, dat is her wish jgak.. igt lg, aku mmg pesan mcm2 kt die.. x brenti2 pesan itu ini.. risau gle.. bole ke bdak ni? Tgk muke die, aku tgk same je mcm muke aku dpt msuk itm dulu.. x hepi sgt. Die dpt gud result mase upsr. Dpt offer msuk sbpi. So, tpakse lepas jgak.. lg sorg adik bradik aku yg kua dr umah.. makin jarang la aku jmp die.. ble aku blik umah, die x blik.. ble aku x blik, die blik.. mcm tu je la slalu.. since dat time, da mule terase yg ktrg da x serapat dlu.. masing2 da bwk haluan masing2.. x mcm mase kecik2 dlu.. main same2.. yg paling trase, adik aku yg paling bongsu, die mmg rapat ngan adik laki aku ni.. mmg bekepit je la.. mase memule dlu, sian je tgk die.. abg ksygan da duk jauh.. hu~ skrg, da 3 thun die kt sana.. thun ni die pmr.. smlm, die col.. ktrg borak.. die cte psal study die.. next week, die nk pmr da.. again, I can’t stop pesan mcm2 kt die.. hehe.. aku pulak tumpang nervous.. but, I’m confident.. die mesti bole buat pye.. gud luck nuar!

Ble da dpat further degree.. bru la rase mcm dekat sket ngan family. Tp, stil kne duk lua gak.. hm.. same je.. tp.. at least, snang sket nk blik la.. tp, kt cni slalu bz.. jarang pulak blik.. ade 1 mase, da lame x blik.. suddenly, got msg from mum.. she said, my bro yg bwah i.. nk kua duk lua jgak.. die x further study.. x minat.. die keje after spm.. mcm x suke pulak die nk duk lua.. tp, ble pk blik.. die lg la spoil.. bia je la die nk bdikari.. dlu mase kecik2, we were very close.. aku sorg je panggil die adik smp skrg.. n ngan aku je die bahasekan diri die adik smp skrg.. tp, ble da bsar2 ni.. ktrg da jarang bcakap.. die pun jenis yg pendiam.. spatah tye.. sekerat je die jwb.. hm.. ape jenis la adik aku yg sorg neh.. so, skrg tggl mak, ayah n my little sis je.. rumah tu makin sunyi.. ayah pulak, slalu xder kt umah.. so, mak n ija je la.. naseb ader my uncle pye sis.. k.nun.. die duk skali ngan ktrg.. tp, x lame lg die nk kawen da.. hm.. kesian kt my mom.. mesti die sunyi..